And I'll be 28.
28 years OLD.
Imagine that..
28 years old and I'm still like 'this'
I swear to myself that I'd change, but look at me..
Have I changed? Have I turned over a new leaf?
I have NOT, have I..?
You might be wandering why the sudden writing again, huh? huhuhu...
Today, during lunch (or rather on our way back from having lunch) my friend, the other officer, revealed something to me.
Apparently the no 1 boss in my office thinks that I don't really do my job.
My initial response was that of a calm demeanor.
Because I myself was thinking the same too.
But then, I realised 'Hey, I DID do my work"
Back then during the "majlis penutup" (can't find that word in Englis xp) for that S***, I was going back and fro trying to make sure that everything went smoothly.
My boss? HE was only there for rehearsal the night before the event.
The rehearsal, that in my opinion, is NOT a rehearsal at all. Baik xyah buat pun. Bazir masa tido ak je!!
I don't know...
If he felt that I'm not doing a good enough job, then why didn't he tell me?
Why didn't he give me directions, give me guidance?
Instead he complained to my friend.
Sometimes I feel like he treated me that way because I choose to disagree with him on more than one occasions.
The reason why?
He's stingy!!
So damn stingy that it makes my blood boils!!
You know, I myself DO NOT support spending government's money for petty reasons.
However, when you want to hold a big event BUT you refuse to give some allocation for that?
That's ridiculous!!
S*** is this important event for my department.
My boss, he wanted to have it BIG, but the budget was like...are u f****** me???
And then, there's another instances when he firmly ordered us to buy "drinking water" instead of "mineral water" for this joran sthg event.
The participants paid RM35 each. They were forced to buy the coupon, the least we could do is to provide them with things that worth the RM35 the were forced to pay.
I can't accept that. That's cheap.
The way he went about the matter is "We need to minimize the cost so we could gain more profit. It's for our use too"
"Our use" my a**!!!
And then there's the jamuan raya. Apparently they had it at night before this.Where?
At the office. Yup, imagine that.
Jamuan raya, at night, at office.
Kalu buat kat hotel, ak boleh terima. Tapi, ofis?? OFFICE?
The reason why is to cut budget. Obviously, other departments won't be coming, right?
This year, we have it at the office, but during the day.
Problem is, we'd expecting many people since we deal with a lot of customers during the day.
And then there's nearby departments.
However, he only gave us allocation for 200-300 persons.
I saw with my own eyes this one uncle that queue but didn't get to eat.
And where was him during this??
Safely away at a meeting.
Gosh,I always end u with extreme bosses.
The one that spend extra lavishly and this one that's extra stringy!!!!
Man, I just can't make myself agree with him.
He doesn't listen to what I want to say.
He's stubborn and a typical senior gov servant, where their words rule.
Well, I'm sorry but if I see it wrong, then I will not going to follow blindly.
And I'm sorry if I'm not a 'kaki kipas"'
He does not know that I don't have plan to go further with my current job.
Honestly, I don't think I care.
I am positive that I can take it calmly if I never move up in this line of work.
Because the higher I get, the more responsibility that I have to bear.
And I don't think that I am ready to bear that burden just yet.
So, yeah..
I'm forever pessimistic and negative..
So yeahh, I need an Ohno in my life. HA. You don't see it coming, do you?? xp
Ohno never fail to sneak himself in my entry..
Now, I wish more than ever to become him.
I wish we could have traded place one day, and he'd help in making people to like me..
He has that effect on people..
Get to know him and you'd be attracted to him, in the same way the 4 members of Arashi adore him.
Ii ne, Ohno Satoshi.
The ever sweet, gentle,adorable, dorky, beautiful, kakkoi Riida..
You're lucky to be you..
