Post Malaysian GE13 time~

Hi^^

Yep, I'm at office. So that's why I write :P

I am proud to announce that at the age of 27, I have successfully vote for the first time!!
hahahaha
To tell the truth, I was already eligible to vote in the 12th GE in 2008.
I was 22 when the 12th GE took place and this is suppose to be my 2nd time voting.
However, being the ignorant brat that I was, I didn't register my name with SPR.hehehe
Well, what do you expect. I was still studying back then! hohoho


Anyway, I want to share something today :-

By Fedtri Yahya

Khas untuk ibu bapa sekalian.... Tahukah anda bahawa.. :

1. Anak tunggal slalunye lambat cakap.  - in my case, a late walker XP

2. Anak pompuan ckp byk 3 kali daripada lelaki - I guess I can be quite talkative at times..??

3. Bermain dgn anak2 meningkatkan kegembiraan emosi mereka - this explain my emotional 
     instability... But I used to be a very happy kid! Smiling wide in all those pictures..What had happened..?

4. Anak lelaki suke fizikal touch dgn bapak. Main ultramen, pergi padang.Klu anak lelaki x dpt fizikal touch die akan suke bergaduh dgn adik2 die - will bear this in mind.Once I have kids..If ever... 

5. Interaksi antara ibu bapa dan anak dgn bermain akan membina bonding antara anak dan parent - Y_Y

6. Anak2 pun stress sbb x keluar rumah. So cuba cari masa bawa anak keluar dari rumah.

7. Anak perempuan mempunyai potensi lebih besar dari sudut kemahiran berbahasa (verbal)

8. Anak lelaki mempunya potensi yg lebih besar dari sudut kemahiran visuospatial (ruang). Asuh kelebihan ini dengan memberikan mereka peluang bersukan seperti bola sepak, menunggang basikal. Doktor galakan belikan anak basikal kerana ini akan meningkatkan skill mereka

9. Kanak-kanak yg mempunyai kemahiran membaca akan mempunyai kemahiran bertutur dan berbahasa yang baik

10. Kanak2 yg sering berdamping rapat dgn bapa mereka didapati lebih berdaya saing dlm byk hal. Lebih berkeyakinam diri, sayangkan diri sendiri, mudah menyesuaikan diri di sekolah, kemahiran interpersonal yg baik. - Like really??? So I can officially blame my father for my condition? It is his fault then that I am such a low-esteemed pathetic person...! 
If I ever have a kid, I'll try not to do this them. I never want to live the life that I've been living. 
It really pathetic to feel sorry for yourself all the time.
It's like a prison. I can't never escape from it.
At the end of the day, I will always go back to being negative, thinking that I don't deserve any happiness....

So, before I get more depressed I'll stop here.
Babai...

New Ministry, New Department!!!

Hi^^

As usual, I lied again.
Haven't been writing as much as I said I would, have I??

Anyway, I've gone through the six-month course DPA successfully.
Usually, we the PTD officers from that course would go back to our previous ministry/department.
However, luck has it that our batch, the 42nd batch, are instructed to be relocated to new ministries/departments.

Well, in one hand, I'm actually elated that I'm finally able to switch department.
Oh, by the way I'm currently serving Jabatan Pengangkutan Jalan Kelantan under the Ministry of Transportation.

However, in another, I'm quite shocked to find out that my new office is a bit stringent when it comes to spending department's allocation.
I don't expect them to lavishly spend money on us, but flight tickets are normal spending in JPP.

I guess that every place has its advantages and disadvantages.
Hopefully, life here wouldn't be as hectic as it was in JPP.
Hoping for a better working environment and a better me.
InsyaAllah...

Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Fitri 1432H

Wednesday, 31/08/2011
2.30 pm


Hello ^^

Today is the 2nd day that we Muslims celebrate Eid.
2nd day and I'm already 'imprisoned' myself in my home.huhu
Typical me...

I don't know why I reject strongly to mixing with people.
Relatives, friends..
I prefer to be on my own, doing pretty much nothing than going out, bonding with those around me.
It's funny.
I'd always end up thinking about Ohno when I touch this matter.
I can't help it.
argggggg!!
I keep thinking that we are sort of similar.
So why does he receive so much love from people around him when I do not???

Remember Nadya, remember.
He's not like you, and you're not like him.
He's gentle and considerate.
You're not.
Yes, he may likes to spend time on his own. But he also spend times with his friends.
His tsuri friend, his raji-tomo..
See?? He's adorable that way.
That's why he is loved by those who him.
You're not like him.
That's why you're not loved by those around you..

LOL at me almost shedding tears writing this.
Blame it on Ashita no Kioku playing on my phone right now.
It's a sad song, somehow...

It's 2.45 pm.
And I don't think I'll be going anywhere this day.
Somehow it's comforting.
Knowing that people forget me because I choose to keep a distance.
I'll only have myself to blame for it. Because I choose to, not because they hate me.
It's a bit mental, I know that.huhu
I guess I'm afraid of getting close to people.
I suck at that..
I'd tried to overcome that, I'd tried really hard to get close.
But at the end of the day I'd just get tired.
It's tiresome..At least for me..

Jaa, babai...

Hi^^

Ah, I lied again eh?
I haven't been writing as much as I said I would.
Anyway, I've moved to new division. Finance division.
I thought this would bring new wind of change.
What do you know, I'm still the same old me.
The one who procrastinate a lot.
The one who hates her job.
The one who is cursed with low self-esteem.
So yeah, I'm pathetic..!
How did it turn so gloomy?
I though about writing something happy...:(
Only Ohno Satoshi can make feel cheery.
That is to some extent..

If I think about wanting to be like him, then I'd be really down.
If I saw his face - preferably in tv screen, alive and kicking -I'd be love-struck to maximum level.
There's no way you can hate that chubby-cheek adorable old man.
NO WAY!
He's too cute to be hated...
Cute old man, I envy you Y_Y

Working is like HELL for me!!

SOOOOOOOOOOO,
why do I hate work so much?
Am I that negative that I hate everythig, EVERYTHING?
Stupid office with its ,okay I'm going to be rational, impossible staffs!
Damn it!!!!!
I hate it all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
Stupid, stupid,stupid!!!
Just listening to the voices outside makes me want to strangle each and every one of them!!
STUPID!!!!!!!!!

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Feb 6th

What the hell??!! *point above*

I must have really lost my mind that day.
I don't even remember why I was so pissed off that day..
I really don't remember!
It's like the weirdest emotional explosion I've ever experienced. It must be VERY weird that I completely forgot what it was about..hmmm

I really only post when I'm at office..

Hi..

I am demotivated again.
What's with me being so lazy, so unmotivated when it comes to my job?
What is it that I look for in my life?
What di I want to do with my life..?
I don't know, I really don't know...

It seems like I'll only post when I'm at office!

Hi ^^



I only post when I'm at office ne.huhu
I can't help it yo!
Being at office is boring, BORING I tell you!
Talking about having no motivation to do my works kind of reminds me to my friend, I.
She would usually cheers me to have motivation to go to work.huhu
Today too, when I sms her saying that I have no motivation, she said something.
Soething like I should be getting myself a 'special' friend a.k.a boyfriend!
LOL, I will not do that!
It's not that I don't believe in love, it's just that I feel like I'm not worthy of it.
The 'me' right not do not deserve it.
Maybe one day, when I feel like I'm worthy of someone's affection thn I'll be looking for one :P

A lot of my friends are either getting married or engaged.
I don't feel envious, in fact I'm happy for them.
It does feel weird, though.
Because when I tried imagining myself in their place, I feel like I would fail it.Totally.
What if I am not meant to have family Y_Y
I don't want to spend the rest of my life alone!!
Yep, I'm getting older.
These days I can't help but keep on thinking about marriage etc etc.
I don't want it now, I'm soooo NOt ready for it now.
I'm too selfish to share my life with someone else..